LOST T_T

Everyone needs a friend.

I toughed I had one, one close to me, there when I needed him.

I’d be there for him in return.

I wish I could go to you, tell you how much I love you as my friend

But instead I’m here, being the coward that I am, speaking hard words,

Pretending to be harder then I am…

But you know I’m not, you know what I really am.

I never showed you my sadness, never showed my sorrow, always hiding my pain.

Fighting against your fears to keep you happy, never wanting to have a fight.

Thinking back to that happy time upsets me, Realising how much I need you

But it was wrong.

I see now how important you were in my life, I realise I love you

Love you as a very good friend.

But you treat just 4 used me .I can feel that.

dont deny, dont pretend. The heart keeps telling the truth.

You made me feel wanted, made me feel like I was someone.

you change.Be someone that i never know

I felt like you betrayed me, hated me.

I felt so alone, so numb.

I miss you, I always will.

I looked you up one time, scared you would be mad, I wanted to cry.

Cry and run, turn away hiding from you, I didn’t want to go.

I didn’t feel safe, I didn’t feel good, but yet I went.

 our conversation end.speechless.

The words that u gave me like heaven is lies.

No action, Talk only.


You give up

You threw me away like a old doll.

You lied.

You lied so much, so hard.

I fought for you, I took the hits for you, I took the blame.

You left me broken.

Yet I want you back, I want you back so bad.

You were the beaming light that pierced trough my darkness.

Making me feel warm and wanted.


I write with tears upon the lines of this parchment

About the friend I had, but now have not;

The things I've said but that I never meant,

Lacking courage to take back the things I've thought.

Yet he remained with me until the end.

I still look back to his friendship for me. 

BUT
No matter what i did. no matter what i do

he always keep blaming me that I always pillory him.

What happened between us?

What did I do?

I thought I could trust you

I've lost my friends in the past

I've tried to be good so it wont happen again

I don't understand

What did I do?

We were so close

We had fun

We were there for each other

Never hurting each other like this

Why you do this to me ?

Why am I crying?

If you want to ruin this go ahead

I'll miss you

I'll never forget you

Why is this happening?

I hate letting people down

I hate what I'm doing to you


I'm sorry for hurting you

I'm sorry for doing this

I'm sorry for everything

I always keep ma words that I always look at you as ma BFF even you already have a girlfriend.

It just your attitude gave ma feeling distract .That's all

If you feel that you good or matured enough u dont have to be like this.

Itsokey Carry on , I always Pray for you):

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Hello N Thank You^_^

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DELETE :|

I don't regret that I hate you, 

You’re the one that started this shit; 

You knew it all the way through. 

I won't say sorry, it's not my turn, 

All I have to do is burn baby burn.

This is crazy, why is everything turned upside down? 

What has happened to this once quiet town? 

Love is a poison, passing from one to another, 

Betraying those as close as a sister and brother. 

  I don't care if I delete your number,

Now I can pick up my phone, 

But there is something you should remember, 

"Have fun living life alone".

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Hello N Thank You^_^

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