Popping heart syndrome

When I look at you my heart breaks a million times over and over again
When I see your smile, I swear that I can’t breathe
And I cry inside every time you look away from me
And the worst part is, I can’t even mend my heart
Because I loved you, and I still do…
Is it wrong to feel this way?
When I know my heart become like this
how to love you back even my heart already empty?
I am heartless, helpless to be in love in you
BUT
I feel my heart beating for you, crying tears that I will never shed
I feel my soul ripping into a million pieces
I watch secretly, I watch you talk and laugh and smile
And I weep at night because I know I’ll never join you
I don't know what my love to you now
But I will always love you...
JUST
I can't seem to get through it,
everyday seems so hard and worthless.
the days drag on and make me sick,
can't wait for the doors to close on me.
hate everything about myself,
iIm not worth the pain or the hurt.
all these mixed up feelings inside,
my heart is empty and so is my mind.
Because I'm dead in my heart.
people I love just fade away,
realising I'm not worth the effort.
I'm so confused, I can't go on,
I feel so completely numb..

I wonder what went wrong, it became like this
when I'm not pretty sure
After all the crossings we've been through,
it's not suppose to be like this. Why?
And every time you're in problem in arse
you just simply throw it to me but I can handle it
I swear you will know this somehow
Before it's too late and dies
Realities are so complicated
I wish to see the truth what you said to me earlier

 

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