Know Me :)

 I hate bullshitters. They are just glorified liars, and anyone who knows me even a little know I hate liars, and I will call you out on a lie. I’ll tell you plain and simple I don’t lie.  I don’t feel the need or see the point in doing so.When people try to bullshit me, and I positively  know for a fact that they are. I get annoyed, because I know the truth, and I don’t have the patience to placate these people anymore. How can you expect to improve a situation if you can’t face the truth of it?? Now I’ll be the first to admit I screwed up a lot. I don’t deny it, I don’t down play it, or up play it for that matter.  I have nothing to hide, and nothing to be ashamed of, because I do things to make progress everyday.  I have taken responsibility for every discussion I have made since day 1.  This isn’t about that.This about people making a situation out to be one way when it’s an other, because they don’t want to deal with it. They want to pretend things are one way; when they aren't. In the mean time making that discussion is hurting someone who doesn’t yet have to power to speak up. those attention mongers who need their sympathy fix.  People who mouths just spew dishonest embellishments. People who will say anything to impress someone. Some people who I find just weak who will say anything to agree with someone. The ones I find particularly maddening are the ones who will say anything to make them sound better than you. Maybe I don’t expect too much from people. Maybe there are people I can honestly relate to out there.

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GRADUATION DAY 2010

 AUDITORIUM PARCEL D PUTRAJAYA

 Here it goes, I finally graduated from TRIAL SPM secondary school yesterday :)

The day of graduation was wonderful and terrific!

you can see there's a huge audience from the stadium, that includes our parents

Yeah, we didn't get our diploma nor a real finished SPM yet, just awards. ^_^

Oh, when  I'm finally free from this school, I'll miss my favourite subject

my classmates,my buddies, and of course, my teachers.

I hope they'll take care of themselves.

God bless them all ;))

From this pic, Ma result is not good enough like others

but  I don't know that I did a good job, but it's worth a shot.

Standing & smiling like I am  One In A Million of A success people :D

Hope you'll have a great summer, everyone!

& keep up the good work for your skills or your goals.

Take care! ^^

The Graduation Of 2010 was finally HERE! 

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sometimes friends are all you need

only a few years ago I often had that weird feeling when I met up with friends, as if I didn't really want to go and rather stayed home alone. I didn't have many friends and I didn't mind. but I didn't have really good friends either. today I am looking back and I realize that that was the reason I had that feeling. I liked those people, but they didn't make me feel happy. that week I sometimes sat in my room and didn't know what to do. I didn't want to watch tv or be on the computer or do sports. I simply didn't know what to do. but I knew that if I would meet my friends, I would have a good time and be happy again. and that's exactly what happened when we saw each other. they made me happy and they showed me that there's a feeling I had missed even though I didn't know that it existed.
although some things have been really weird and complicated, that week was important because I needed to realize what I wrote above. 

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LOVE

Someone asked me what is love
is it good, is it bad
is it awesome, is it terrible
I honestly didnt know how to answer them.
I finally desided love is the most complicated of all emotions
Love is kind
love is harsh
love is wonderful
love is terrible
love is a cure
love is a sickness
love is LOVE
love is hate
love is meaningful
love is pointless
love shows the best in people
love shows the worse in people
love makes us speak truth
love makes us lie
love understands everything
love confuses everyone
love builds your life
love tears your heart down
love makes you smile
love makes you cry
love makes us cuddle
love makes us hit
love makes the world go round
love makes the world go crashing down
love makes things simple
love makes things impossible
love is always worth it
love is never worth it
love makes us smarter
love makes us stupid
love is enlightening!
love is BLIND
make love not war
make war out of love
love encourages
love scares
love is peaceful
love creates fights
love is soothing
love is tough

and above all
Love is always worth it
because you become a better person
everytime you love someone
from the simplest careing for a friend
to the deepest desire to love someone til the world ends
from the unconditional love of a child
to the complicated love of the gods
there is...no meaning to love
love means...everything

No matter how much it hurts you, or makes you cry
tries your spirt, and splits your soul.
Love is always worth it...because what doenst kill you
makes you stronger
And however long it takes
you will be, a better person because you lived, though love.
Werent afraid to make mistakes, choices and try again.
And...above all, loved someone no matter what people thought.
You would die for that person...but you would also live for them.
That...is the true meaning of love...

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RING RING A BELL

it's hurt sometimes

I'm standing here you just don't bye

I'm always there you just don't feel

or you just don't wanna feel

don't wanna be hurt that way

but its alright

i am still alive

still stand strong

it's enough for me..

for all this time..

i've been trying so hard

to make it better

not enough for you

always want to find something

so,be my guest

p/s;
dedicated to all my friend..
keep strong, stand still, still believe, waiting for miracle

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TIRED PSSSTT! :(

I'm tired.

Tired of feeling lost, afraid, misunderstood.

Tired of wondering if I'm letting someone down by the choices I've made.

I'm tired.

Tired of getting my feelings hurt, my ego bruised, my heart broken.

Tired of showing these varmin called emotions.

I'm tired.

Tired of being me, of being weak.

Tired of trying to be this person I cannot see.

I'm tired.

Tired of all the pain, all the struggle I've put upon myself.

Tired of not being the person I was.

I'm tired.

Tired of hiding, hoping, and healing.

Tired of listening, learning...letting.

I'm tired...I'm tired.

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LOST T_T

Everyone needs a friend.

I toughed I had one, one close to me, there when I needed him.

I’d be there for him in return.

I wish I could go to you, tell you how much I love you as my friend

But instead I’m here, being the coward that I am, speaking hard words,

Pretending to be harder then I am…

But you know I’m not, you know what I really am.

I never showed you my sadness, never showed my sorrow, always hiding my pain.

Fighting against your fears to keep you happy, never wanting to have a fight.

Thinking back to that happy time upsets me, Realising how much I need you

But it was wrong.

I see now how important you were in my life, I realise I love you

Love you as a very good friend.

But you treat just 4 used me .I can feel that.

dont deny, dont pretend. The heart keeps telling the truth.

You made me feel wanted, made me feel like I was someone.

you change.Be someone that i never know

I felt like you betrayed me, hated me.

I felt so alone, so numb.

I miss you, I always will.

I looked you up one time, scared you would be mad, I wanted to cry.

Cry and run, turn away hiding from you, I didn’t want to go.

I didn’t feel safe, I didn’t feel good, but yet I went.

 our conversation end.speechless.

The words that u gave me like heaven is lies.

No action, Talk only.


You give up

You threw me away like a old doll.

You lied.

You lied so much, so hard.

I fought for you, I took the hits for you, I took the blame.

You left me broken.

Yet I want you back, I want you back so bad.

You were the beaming light that pierced trough my darkness.

Making me feel warm and wanted.


I write with tears upon the lines of this parchment

About the friend I had, but now have not;

The things I've said but that I never meant,

Lacking courage to take back the things I've thought.

Yet he remained with me until the end.

I still look back to his friendship for me. 

BUT
No matter what i did. no matter what i do

he always keep blaming me that I always pillory him.

What happened between us?

What did I do?

I thought I could trust you

I've lost my friends in the past

I've tried to be good so it wont happen again

I don't understand

What did I do?

We were so close

We had fun

We were there for each other

Never hurting each other like this

Why you do this to me ?

Why am I crying?

If you want to ruin this go ahead

I'll miss you

I'll never forget you

Why is this happening?

I hate letting people down

I hate what I'm doing to you


I'm sorry for hurting you

I'm sorry for doing this

I'm sorry for everything

I always keep ma words that I always look at you as ma BFF even you already have a girlfriend.

It just your attitude gave ma feeling distract .That's all

If you feel that you good or matured enough u dont have to be like this.

Itsokey Carry on , I always Pray for you):

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DELETE :|

I don't regret that I hate you, 

You’re the one that started this shit; 

You knew it all the way through. 

I won't say sorry, it's not my turn, 

All I have to do is burn baby burn.

This is crazy, why is everything turned upside down? 

What has happened to this once quiet town? 

Love is a poison, passing from one to another, 

Betraying those as close as a sister and brother. 

  I don't care if I delete your number,

Now I can pick up my phone, 

But there is something you should remember, 

"Have fun living life alone".

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